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Melissa
30 July 2011 @ 11:39 pm
I just wanted to say Thank you for letting me know about Snoopy and Storm. I am very sorry to hear that they had to be put down. I am sorry for the broken hearts that had to come with it.
As for Scarlet she is well I am putting a picture here for you to see her now. She is such a princess :)ScarletCollapse )
 
 
Melissa
25 April 2011 @ 11:55 pm
I am so exhausted today, I had to take Kristina to the ER last night she has been having really bad side pain. She had pancreatitisback in 2002 and the pain she is having is mimicking how she felt then. The ER gave her some pain medicine and medicine for neausiea, they did some blood wok that came back normal and an x-ray that did not show anything out of the ordinary. The ER doctor told her to call her PCP today and see if they wanted to send her to a specialist to see if she has chronic pancreatitis. Show she called her doctor at 9am and left a message we never received a call so she called back and was told her doctor did not have anything to say to her about this after reading the ER report. We are both pissed that even though she is in all this pain and she is afraid to eat anything seeing as to how that triggers the pain her PCP is not willing to talk to her or even consider recommending her to a specialist. So she is considering looking for a new PCP and walking into her current doctors office asking for a copy of her medical files and telling them they are fired as her doctors office.

On top of that I have been feeling very dizzy for the past three days. Nothing seems to help it when it hit and I don't know what is causing it. I told the visiting nurse and she didn't seem to think anything of it, needless to say I am still dizzy. I go and see the back surgeon tomorrow and see as far as getting my stitches out and possibly getting this god forsaken picc line out. Kristina and I will be asking him when I can starting trying to get pregnant, if there will physical therapy, and when I can return to work. I still have a cough from being sick it is in my chest and doesn't seem to have any plans on going any where any time soon.

Our kitchen window was blown open last week by a really bad storm and it glass ended up breaking out landlord came by today picked up the frame, had it fixed and brought it back to us. Its nice to have it back in the window instead of just a heavy towel tacked up. It was really cold in out place while the window was out.

We are thinking of putting one of our cars up on crags list since we do not need to two cars at this point. We will be putting up my 2001 Pontiac Sunfire as it does not have any automatic features to it like the Torres does and Kristina needs all the automatic features since she is partially paralyzed on her left side due to brain surgery in 2004 to try and help with seizures caused by epilepsy. The surgery did help with the seizures but because she had some selling of the brain after surgery it left her left side partially paralyzed. We were going to sell it to out upstairs neighbors but they fell through and we are done waiting on them.  I am hoping we can get at  least $1500 out of her we really need the money right now with me not working at the moment.

Kristina and I need to get in gear and see if we can find a new donor that I am more comfortable with. I really hope we can find someone that we both really like. I am not sure how quickly we will buckle down on looking till we hear what the surgeon says about when we can start tying. I really hope the surgeon says we only need to wait a month or less but from what I have read from others who have had the surgery I had they were told to wait 3-6 months. So we will see.

I am going to go I have to get my next round of antibiotics set up, hooked up and running. Hope you all have a good night.



By mommabear 
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
 
 
Melissa
24 April 2011 @ 01:02 am

Ok so I came by this today on my FB and it has hit a hot button in me! When I read this and watched the video all I could think of was a friend of Kristina's and mine that is trans gender but does not have the money to pay for the hormones or the surgeries and how we have had to defend her in the past. I don't know what upsets me more the fact there was nothing truly done to stop this or the fact that this kid would be so rude and so closed minded as to video it then go on FB himself and say this poor woman was only a man wearing woman's clothes and faked the seziuer which I can assure you from experience it is not fake. I cannot believe when we are supposed to be a civilized society that we cannot even bring ourselves to stop unnecessary violence such as this.

If you would like to know what I am talking about and see the video for yourself it is behind the cut.
Be fair warned the video is hard to watch.
 

Hate Crime!!!Collapse )
 
 
Current Mood: enragedenraged
Current Music: Eat Pray Love
 
 
Melissa
23 April 2011 @ 03:19 am
Random Quizzes under cut just for the lack of something better to do.

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Current Mood: boredbored
 
 
Melissa
23 April 2011 @ 02:29 am
I thought since I had new friends on here I would be nice and post some pictures so you all can see who you are talking to. Please look under the cut.

Kristina and ICollapse )


I will post more pictures later of out home and animals.

Hope I didn't scare anyone away lol




By mommabear 
 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Lockup: New Mexico
 
 
 
Melissa
22 April 2011 @ 10:51 pm
Kristina and I are sitting here watching 20/20 and they are doing a story about Sir Elton John his partner and their new baby :D They are such proud proud papa's. 20/20 just showed their baby boy for the first time and he is absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!! And how cool is it that Lady GaGa is the god mother to their son?! 

On this long trying to conceive journey we are about to embark on seeing them just makes it to where I cannot wait to be pregnant with Kristina's and I baby! If you go back a few entries you will see that we had thought we found the right donor but  I have since started to have some second thoughts so we are now having to go back out and look again for other donors in our area....oy I'm sorry Kristina I know its a lot of work.....I don't think this time I will be as quick to say yes to a donor. I just don't think the person I originally agreed on is really compatible with us as a couple and out personalities. I feel bad that we have to start over but as Kristina said I have to feel comfortable putting his sperm inside me and I just don't. I may be crazy in the end but oh well.

Kristina is a bit baby crazy too. she is sitting next to me cutting up cloth dipper pre-fold so we can make them in to soakers for the cloth dippers we are making. The ones we have are too big for the new born dippers we will be making so we have to make smaller ones to fit the dippers. As I have said before we figured out that making our own cloth dippers is cheaper then buying pre-made ones as you most of the time end up paying for mainly the name as you do with most things from clothes to cars. Plus like I said before by making our own dippers we can get much cuter fabric prints not to mention non of the cloth dippers out there come with a new born notch for the baby's stump till it falls off.

I cannot wait till Tuesday we go and see the back surgeon and we can finally ask when we can start tracking ovulation to prepare to try and get pregnant, I am hoping he does not say we have to wait 6 more months to even start trying. Not to mention I should be able to get my stitches out and then hopefully a few days later will get the damn picc line out of arm!

So that's it for now.



By mommabear
 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: 20/20
 
 
Melissa
22 April 2011 @ 10:11 pm
I wanted to say welcome to everyone who has added me recently. I hope you will enjoy reading my journal and I look forward to reading yours.

Sorry this post is so short but just wanted to say welcome.
 
 
Melissa
22 April 2011 @ 12:53 am
So I posted the other night that Kristina and I found a donor but that seems not to be the case. After posting that we started talking and although he is a nice guy I am just really unsure if he the right guy, not to mention he is a good distance away from us for donation. So we are on the hunt again to see if we can find someone closer and more compatible to out/my comfort level. We have registered for 5 or more free sperm donations sites and most are geared toward gay couples which is nice. I am actually excited to see who is out there and have more options then just one person, my gut tells me we are supposed to find someone else that is more compatible to our personalities and looks and so on.

I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday the 26th with the back surgeon to have the stitches taken out and we will be asking when I can start trying to get pregnant and when I can return to work. Then if all goes well I should be able to have this picc line pulled by the end of next week.

Kristina and I will be spending Easter Sunday with her mom. We will either go out for dinner or cook and then it's a night of board and card games. So it should be a good time.

Well this IV is done so I gotta run, have a good night everyone.




By vblackangelv 
 
 
Current Mood: boredbored
 
 
Melissa
21 April 2011 @ 12:01 am
So I am feeling a lot better then I have in the past few days, I have gotten plenty of sleep even with having to do the antibiotics four times a day.

Kristina and I cut out our first newborn cloth dipper from a really cute print called "Ooga Booga", we have decided to make our own cloth dippers instead of spending all the money on buying premade we will be spending about half of what it would cost to buy already made by making our own and we can get cuter prints this way, all we have to do now is get her mom to let us borrow the sewing machine so we can sew it together. Her mom thinks we are crazy because we don't have a baby yet but we are more then ready to have one, we have pretty much all we need to get started (crib, swing, changing table, 4-in-1 high chair, car seat/stroller combo, bottles, binkys, boy and girl wardrobes, breast pump,  play mat and so much more!). Not to mention Kristina and I finally settled on who we want to be out donor and he called to check up on us tonight, all we are waiting now is the OK from the back surgeon that we can start trying and we will. I am so ready and all of this back stuff cannot be over soon enough.

That's all I got for now hope all are well.




By desa_arcadia
 
 
Current Mood: chipperchipper
 
 
Melissa
19 April 2011 @ 10:14 pm

I believe I confused everyone by the pics I put up, non of them are my current style so here is a pic of me to use as a reference against the other pics.

 
 
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